... I understood what death was, vaguely. I knew it was something that you didn't come back from. I just... when you're raised to love something, and then you realize that you'll never be approved of, that you were set up for failure all of your life -
[That's not even getting into the possibility of him and Abel potentially being related to Lucifer. Abel has his own demonic thing going on, but as for himself... he's only heard of hints, nothing solid. It's not as if he can talk to Lucifer and ask.]
The Flood. The wars. The endless lives that were cut short, either by my hand or by someone else's. The suffering, the injustice - so many things that God could have stepped in and stopped, but He didn't. So either He hadn't paid attention for a long time, or He enjoyed watching it. I'm sure it's the latter, given how often misfortune has struck me in my lives.
I've had people taken from me over and over again. I've been killed in more ways than you could count. This is far beyond 'punishment'.
Physical torture... being crushed, being beaten, feeling every cell in your body die... it's nothing. That's why I'm not afraid of this place.
... But it's not as if you knew. Most people wouldn't believe me. Akira did, but... well.
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[That's not even getting into the possibility of him and Abel potentially being related to Lucifer. Abel has his own demonic thing going on, but as for himself... he's only heard of hints, nothing solid. It's not as if he can talk to Lucifer and ask.]
The Flood. The wars. The endless lives that were cut short, either by my hand or by someone else's. The suffering, the injustice - so many things that God could have stepped in and stopped, but He didn't. So either He hadn't paid attention for a long time, or He enjoyed watching it. I'm sure it's the latter, given how often misfortune has struck me in my lives.
I've had people taken from me over and over again. I've been killed in more ways than you could count. This is far beyond 'punishment'.
Physical torture... being crushed, being beaten, feeling every cell in your body die... it's nothing. That's why I'm not afraid of this place.
... But it's not as if you knew. Most people wouldn't believe me. Akira did, but... well.