You're being stupid. My decision to make or not, I did what I did with the information I had available to me. You could have helped that. If it was really my choice then you would have told me everything right from the get go and made that clear.
[But he didn't. So in some small way, maybe His Kazuya's choice reflected that. To have sided with the Angels because of what Naoya had hid from him, purposefully at that.
Part of him will think that, then. That his choice to go against this Naoya was that of his own making, and maybe that makes sense. Why would you trust someone who doesn't seem to care enough to trust you?]
You say I had a choice, but what choice did I have, Naoya? From the look of things it was either become a monster and go along with your plan and hope that what I was making was the right choice, go against you and seemingly fix nothing, or make even more trouble by handing off demons to the government. The same government that wants me dead, no less. I had less than seven days to make a decision. You had 17 years to tell me literally anything, and you didn't. Even when we needed you because all of us trusted you.
And what choice did I have? What choice do you think I still have? Do you think I want to watch you turn into a demon or - or something else - or put you in -
[He growls in frustration, fingers digging further into his clothing. He's going to tear a hole in them at this irate.]
... Maybe you're right in that I could have told you more. I wasn't sure if you were ready. I wasn't sure if you would trust me. I wasn't sure if you were strong enough. Honestly while I had hoped you would survive I wasn't entirely sure and I had to be prepared to change plans if you didn't.
[That... would have been worst case scenario. Not quite game over, but close. Definitely headed towards demonic post-apocalyptic hellscape.]
And while I know you'll say 'then you should have helped us' there were people to keep an eye on in the background. ... For example, do you honestly think that Harusawa only tried something foolish once? Her guardian wasn't always able to keep an eye on her. And even besides that, there were people to save. ... Takagi's little reign of terror was fairly disruptive, as well as doing my best to steer people away from Komaki where I could.
[For someone who lived so eternally, he can't believe what he's hearing. That Naoya was a coward. That he was afraid of something like Kazuya not believing him.
It's nonsense, and Kazuya stands suddenly.]
Even if I hadn't believed you, even if none of us had, then at least you still would have told us something. You could have done anything, even sent a message through the COMP when it was night. I didn't even know if you were safe most of that time!
... What is it that you want me to say, Kazuya? Apologizing won't fix anything, and you know I won't in any case. Reason and excuse both seem to fall on deaf ears. And humor has no place here. So what is it that you want?
[He looks up at his cousin, his brother, with a fairly neutral expression. He's not sure what the other expects him to do at this point. The past is the past. And no matter how much one wishes to change it - and oh, how he has - they can't.]
I know you won't hurt me, but right now you're at risk of hurting someone else. So what do you want me to say? What do you want me to do?
[He's not afraid. He's actually rather calm in the face of this demon - but he can tell that his brother isn't going to last too long without some kind of release.]
[This Naoya.... Hasn't done anything wrong. He's taking his frustrations out on someone who isn't technically culpable for the route he'd taken. It's unfair. It's unfair to him, and it's unfair to Naoya.
So. What? What does he want out of this? Naoya can't fix anything, and does any of this really matter anyway when it's not them, just their dreamselves? And who's that they'll even remember any of this?]
[He's... concerned as to what Kazuya's going to do to let off steam, but it's not any of his business. As long as no one gets hurt due to his own direct actions it's not Naoya's responsibility. He really doesn't care all that much. ... With the majority of people, anyway - but the people he does care about he's pretty sure Kazuya largely wouldn't touch anyway.]
... I'll have your laundry done by the time you return so you won't have to worry about it.
[And it gives him something mindless to focus on, too.]
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[But he didn't. So in some small way, maybe His Kazuya's choice reflected that. To have sided with the Angels because of what Naoya had hid from him, purposefully at that.
Part of him will think that, then. That his choice to go against this Naoya was that of his own making, and maybe that makes sense. Why would you trust someone who doesn't seem to care enough to trust you?]
You say I had a choice, but what choice did I have, Naoya? From the look of things it was either become a monster and go along with your plan and hope that what I was making was the right choice, go against you and seemingly fix nothing, or make even more trouble by handing off demons to the government. The same government that wants me dead, no less. I had less than seven days to make a decision. You had 17 years to tell me literally anything, and you didn't. Even when we needed you because all of us trusted you.
cw: suicide mention
[He growls in frustration, fingers digging further into his clothing. He's going to tear a hole in them at this irate.]
... Maybe you're right in that I could have told you more. I wasn't sure if you were ready. I wasn't sure if you would trust me. I wasn't sure if you were strong enough. Honestly while I had hoped you would survive I wasn't entirely sure and I had to be prepared to change plans if you didn't.
[That... would have been worst case scenario. Not quite game over, but close. Definitely headed towards demonic post-apocalyptic hellscape.]
And while I know you'll say 'then you should have helped us' there were people to keep an eye on in the background. ... For example, do you honestly think that Harusawa only tried something foolish once? Her guardian wasn't always able to keep an eye on her. And even besides that, there were people to save. ... Takagi's little reign of terror was fairly disruptive, as well as doing my best to steer people away from Komaki where I could.
You weren't the only one with a packed schedule.
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[For someone who lived so eternally, he can't believe what he's hearing. That Naoya was a coward. That he was afraid of something like Kazuya not believing him.
It's nonsense, and Kazuya stands suddenly.]
Even if I hadn't believed you, even if none of us had, then at least you still would have told us something. You could have done anything, even sent a message through the COMP when it was night. I didn't even know if you were safe most of that time!
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[He looks up at his cousin, his brother, with a fairly neutral expression. He's not sure what the other expects him to do at this point. The past is the past. And no matter how much one wishes to change it - and oh, how he has - they can't.]
I know you won't hurt me, but right now you're at risk of hurting someone else. So what do you want me to say? What do you want me to do?
[He's not afraid. He's actually rather calm in the face of this demon - but he can tell that his brother isn't going to last too long without some kind of release.]
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[This Naoya.... Hasn't done anything wrong. He's taking his frustrations out on someone who isn't technically culpable for the route he'd taken. It's unfair. It's unfair to him, and it's unfair to Naoya.
So. What? What does he want out of this? Naoya can't fix anything, and does any of this really matter anyway when it's not them, just their dreamselves? And who's that they'll even remember any of this?]
I'm going to go let off some steam.
[Which is to say, he's leaving.]
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[He's... concerned as to what Kazuya's going to do to let off steam, but it's not any of his business. As long as no one gets hurt due to his own direct actions it's not Naoya's responsibility. He really doesn't care all that much. ... With the majority of people, anyway - but the people he does care about he's pretty sure Kazuya largely wouldn't touch anyway.]
... I'll have your laundry done by the time you return so you won't have to worry about it.
[And it gives him something mindless to focus on, too.]