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Date/Time: 2023-09-24 01:15 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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There's you.

[... And he is kind of curious as to how much Macca that Naoya has. What if he cheated macca for himself.

Kazuya wouldn't put that past him, honestly.

And, as if just thinking about something, he gently nudges Naoya.
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Hey, since I'm a demon, would I be able to put myself up on auction?
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 02:26 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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[Too late. He's already made it weird, and Kazuya pulls away from Naoya entirely, and shoves him for it, though he doesn't use even a fraction of the strength he has. Just enough to let his cousin know that he's annoyed at that.]

Hilarious.

[He says, in the most flat tone.]

It's not about me looking for someone to obey, and you know it.
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 02:35 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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Not really. [He shakes his head, though that might also be part of it. Someone who could force him to reign in his power, if needed.]

It's mostly that this place is kind of more dangerous than I thought it'd be? I mean, I showed up during a festival, and it was mostly just obnoxious pranks being pulled.

[Which was way more light hearted. And he'd been told about the Story Eater too, but that seemed like it had cleared everything up, from what he had understood, but now... He's not so sure.]
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Date/Time: 2023-09-24 02:37 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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To protect people, obviously.

[Though... The auction is probably a poor way to do that, considering how... free form it was. Any demon summoned for any reason at a reasonable price, to be used as the summoner saw fit.]
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 02:42 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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... Honestly I thought it'd just be you. Unless you'd be able to tweak the macca setting to make it more affordable.

[.... Which sounds exceptionally weird and bad to ask to make himself more affordable.]
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 02:51 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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[The tone itself has him shrink back into himself, just a bit. He knows he's been... kind of rude, but he thought he'd at least made it clear that he does like his cousin, that he does care for Naoya, and that he even likes being around him, more often than not.]

If I wanted to get away from you I wouldn't be here to begin with.

[They used to be so close, even after Naoya moved out, though even he'd ended up visiting less and less because Naoya had been more and more busy in the few months before the lock down.

And then the lock down had strained things further between them, even if in the end Kazuya had chosen Naoya over everyone else because he trusted him.

He still does, though now he's not sure if the feeling is mutual, considering their different outcomes.
]
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 03:05 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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I don't care about that, Naoya. I followed you because I trusted you. That you knew what was best. Because you gave me the best possible answer to take in what time I had to choose.

[And... Naoya had let him choose. It would have been so easy for Naoya in his infinite experience to railroad him down his path. Make it so that there couldn't have ever been any other way.

But he didn't. He didn't force him a single step of the way other than starting the initial lock down, only presented the option.

This time he closes the distance again, wrapping his arms around his cousin from behind in a tight hug.
]

I still trust you, even if you don't know. And I want you to trust me that I'll figure something out for you, somehow.
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 03:15 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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[What does he want...? To save Naoya. To protect the people that matter to him. To give into the factors of Bel inside him and kill God and all of the angels. To make them hurt and suffer and pay for everything they'd done to him. To Naoya. To his friends and the people he cares about.

There's so much he wants, but nothing he can do here. He just has to trust that the him that's awake is still fighting, and still winning, and that after everything is said and done, he'll keep the knowledge that he has here, that there's another Naoya who is suffering, another him who had made the wrong choice, for whatever reason.

His grip tightens on his brother, maybe a little too much.
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I want to protect you.
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 03:23 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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You did protect me.

[Naoya gave him and his friends COMPS. Gave him the Laplace Mail, and gave them everything they needed to survive Gods ordeal and then some. Maybe he hadn't directly, physically helped, but he had helped none the less.

He'd even helped with saving Amane, too. And he knows how Naoya, how this Naoya, must feel about that.
]
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 19:08 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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You gave me choices, Naoya. I know it would have been so easy for you to force me to take your path. To keep me from seeing any other options.

[With, perhaps, the exception of Remiel's, but the angels were particularly underhanded anyway, from what he'd experienced.

He can't help the sharp breath he takes. Naoya had called him his baby cousin. There's a part of him there that cares for him as he is, as Kazuya. Not just Abel. Not just as the brother he'd apparently murdered.

Sure, they swap between brother and cousin often enough, but here he lets himself feel that maybe it's more pointed than normal.

His grip tightens further on Naoya, likely uncomfortable at this point.
]
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 21:49 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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[Naoya is right. He would want to save as many people as possible. He still does, even at the steep price it came at.

But here, there's one person he wants to protect more than anyone else, and that's Naoya. Naoya, who he has the feeling is afraid of him, in some capacity. In a way, it's been eating at him, a persistent gnaw that keeps him up at night sometimes here.

He wants to protect Naoya. And while he could easily do that without the binding of a demonic contract, part of him hopes that same binding means that Naoya might find some measure of peace in the fact that Kazuya would be entirely incapable of hurting him.

So he swallows thickly, pulls away and slowly sinks into a kneel, head bowed low, vulnerable.
]

I know you're afraid of me, Naoya. [He states, simple and even.] Of what I could be capable of. Of what I might do to you. [For reasons that are real to Naoya, and seem like a joke to him, because he couldn't ever raise a hand against Naoya to begin with, but...]

I want you to contract me. Not just so I can protect you, but so I can't hurt you, ever.
Date/Time: 2023-09-24 22:04 (UTC)Posted by: [personal profile] belheir
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[Naoya is right. Any reasonable person would be absolutely terrified of him. Most are, and he can live with that, at least until it comes to Naoya being afraid of him. Of Yuzu or Atsuro being afraid of him.

And Yuzu had been afraid of him. Maybe Atsuro had too, but at least he'd stuck by his side in the end.

Kazuya bites his lip in response. He'd given this so much thought. Mulled over it, over the options he had. It's not about him feeling any better. It's not about the factors of Bel inside him that would surely rage against such a binding in a bid to be free.

He can contain that, he's sure of it. What he can't stand, however, is Naoya being fearful of him.
]

I'll figure it out when I need to. [His voice is sharp, curt.] I don't want you to be afraid that I'll hurt you. The factors of Bel don't matter, I'll contain them like I have been.

[Fine, for the most part. Poorly, for the rest. Bel is a being of destruction, after all, and sometimes that's enough to make him antsy, to release that destructive urge.]

Besides. I know you won't take advantage of it.

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